Yesterday was my first day ALONE with both kids. Needless to say, I was really nervous. But, surprisingly, things went really well. Today was a little more shaky though. Rachel woke up in a whiny mood and it pretty much lasted all day. Because it's just me here, she felt the brunt of having to share her mama with this new crying thing that has entered her life. I get a little emotional when I look at things from her perspective. Everyone keeps telling me it's going to get better. I really hope so. It's hard to see my little girl not her smiley self.
"I'm not sure about his noises."
One of the things that hasn't happened, that I thought would, was a change in her sleeping habits. Normally when something new happens that takes her out of her routine, she has a hard time falling asleep and it can mess with her naps and even bedtime. That has not happened and she is providing me with a 1.5 to 3 hour break during the day. It gives me a chance to clean up around the house, take a nap while snuggling with Charlie and eat lunch. I am VERY thankful for that. I have found that most of the time that Rachel is awake it requires me to make sure she isn't going to hurt Charlie. She can be nice when she wants but sometimes she'll just smack at him. I think she does it because she knows it will get my attention. I try to really verbally reward her when she is nice though.
Pout face...right before the tears start
As far as Charlie goes, he's growing right before my eyes. Each day he's different and becoming more aware of things around him. He's staying awake more and just seems so interested in anything I have to say to him. Because Rachel is our first and only child, I keep thinking that he'll follow the same path as her as far as development goes. I keep thinking it will be a couple months before he smiles, over a year before he's done with bottles, over a year before he walks. But then I have to remind myself that he is going to move along much faster. That I really do need to stop and watch him grow because I won't have the luxury of time with him.